"yes...you!"

I really don't know how to start this blog, I just want to write to release whatever is inside me...Let's begin with this question. 

When somebody tells you they "miss you", what comes first into your mind?

If the person is merely your friend, a guy friend. A stranger who become a part of your life, a person who happened to be your buddy in some way. Someone whose always been there for you, makes you laugh...makes you happy. You talked everyday, you see each other 2 or 3 times a week depends on the schedule but at the end of the day you knew that he's still a stranger. A man you can never call mine, you don't even know how to introduce him to your friends. All you can disclose is your terms of endearment...that's it! 

Few months ago, I bumped to an acquaintance who I've known years ago. We really had a wonderful conversation on the first night. We started seeing each other, he accompanied me to the office and bring me home at night and so on. Suddenly, he started telling me that he missed me and love me but I didn't give a shit because twas to early to tell if he does. As we do our usual routine, days...weeks...months...I noticed those little act of sweetness was lessened but still we enjoyed each others company. There was actually a time that I felt the same, after seeing him my heart beats fast and it confused me. I ended up with a conclusion that I might be falling already and I should stop it...I had too...I began to control myself and try not to be attached nor not to care too much about him, and I actually made it! But just a few days ago he inbox me and at the end of his message twas written "miss you!". Again, my heart beats faster and felt something unusual, a feeling more than just missing him...funny ayt?...found more difficult for me to deal with this now because am afraid of getting hurt so might as well do my usual "mind over heart" thingy. arghhhhhh this is really hard!


The difference of missing someone and loving someone now bewildered me a bit. Is there any possibility that we only misinterpreted those two act as one or we can't really tell we miss someone without loving them at first. Hahaha...duh soooo highschool! I was never been crazy with my feelings in my 30 years on earth, damn! What to do now?  -___- (sigh)